Hello guys! How are you doing? I’m back to work since the 6th and I’m already excited for spring break. When I was still a student, I was one of those people who gets excited when vacations are already near but misses school when the break gets boring. But when I joined the labor force, I became the type who just detaches myself from everything that reminds me of work. Sometimes, I even forget the name of my students and even become unaware of time. So yeah, I’m one with you who was dragging my ass to work after the holidays.
This is one of the outfits I wore during winter vacation, which photos were taken in the underground passages of Tokyo. I couldn’t find anything special to wear that day so I just mashed up all my most used items in my closet. I need to do this often and shop less to achieve my goals this year- traveling and moving in to my new apartment specifically (click HERE for related post).
Forever 21 jacket, GU Japan denim shirt, H&M pants, Versace x H&M boots, JEAQ necklace from Kikastyle and Prada bag
When my parents decided to break up and my mom went abroad to work, I basically grew up without them under the caring wings of my grand parents from my mom’s side. I’d always be playful and loud outside the house but when I get home, I had the privacy and peace I needed to clear my mind and rest my body. Back then, I could do things my way and on my own pace. I didn’t need to conform to anybody’s rules as long as I’m doing well in class and I keep myself safe. My grand parents understood this so they just let me be on my own once I locked myself in my room.
Then suddenly, I had to leave all of that behind and start living in an apartment of three rooms with five other people. Even if I knew my family for a long time, I didn’t grow up with my mom, my stepdad and my siblings so for me, they are new people in my life. Imagine how hard it was to adjust to everything. It has been almost seven years since I started living with a family but until now, I’m still not used to the noise and chaos. Being a Filipino, I was raised and taught to appreciate my family all the time. I believe in that in the truest sense and amidst the imperfections of each member, I absolutely do love my family- my mom, dad, siblings and my stepdad. But I don’t think I can’t live together with any of them. I need to be alone, be quiet and do things on my own in my own timing once I stepped into my sanctuary from a long tiring day of work. I need tranquility and peace of mind after a day of battling for survival…and sad to say, I don’t think I can get that as long as I am living with them. Don’t get me wrong! Like what I said earlier, I REALLY do love my family but I’m better off alone.
That’s why I can’t wait to move out of our house and start living on my own. I know it isn’t easy because I have to do and pay everything all by myself with my own money. It’s even harder because I live in a foreign country which language I haven’t mastered. But I’m sure this is the way to get the peace that I want. After all, I’m not getting any younger so I need to be fully independent. I believe I already am but leaving my parent’s side will officially seal that. I’ve already found a good spacious unit and paid the key money but I still need to fill up and pass a few documents before the real estate office hands me the key to my new place. I realized it isn’t that easy moving to my own place because there are a lot I need to do but then, I’m excited to start a new life and cross out one item in my list of things to do.
photos of me by Ria Reyes